oh, and one more thing about my BAD MOUTHED DD!!!!

she was writing some words today, and got "fan" and "duck" mixed up as she wrote...well, you can guess what came up! what are we teaching her!?!? i had a hard time of it not to crack up, again....just erased it and asked her to write the RIGHT word...LOL

man, as if it's not bad enough she's not reading well, she says and writes "bad" words!!!!

i have to say that one our nicest Ohio friends is SO great to keep calling us after we flake out on them years ago for thanksgiving and also are REALLY bad about calling back! if you read this, you know who you are! and congrats on the new house-send pics.

well...i must go read-why am i wasting time on this machine? i cant get away....Heeeeeelllllppppp....

btw, i can tell people are nervous with the fact that we arent going to church anywhere yet and it's been MONTHS! i used to so be like that...so worried and slightly judgemental...and sometimes not so slightly. im not sure what the next months/years hold for us, but we're trusting God to be clear. sometimes ive thought of him as some capricious one, who is like "ok, here's a little sign, now YOU figure out what's next...hee hee hee" but ive since been made aware that he really wants us to KNOW him and what he's thinking and will be clear. cool. so, we wait. we wait, and we love each other. i think we've grown to love each other even more since we arent going to that church, anyways...and are uninvolved with certain people who shall remain nameless. that's been good, and hard, and good, and hard. i hope i am learning to "set boundries" earlier on in relationships (such psychobabble) so i wont have to do anything drastic like we did, again. dang!!! bleh.

so...that's it.

Shalom

IM IN A GALLERY!!!!

yup. i am. im so TOTALLY stoked about it. WHooo-Hooooo.

so. that's cool. and as if someone might read this, my website again is...

www.summerjbarry.com

coolio

ok. so-is anyone reading these? all i get for comments-all 3 of them-are like-"cool blog-check out this ad". argh. what about me?!? comment on what im saying!!! whoa-a little anymosity?!? doh. so, it's that bad? no one likes me? im dumb??? you dont agree and are afraid to tell me?!? *sigh*

im having a little pity-party over here, obviously. so...it' s been beautiful here in Saint George! the BEST fall we've had since we've lived here, seriously. im LOVING it. thanks, God. i needed. i was DREADING more of that blisteringly hot, evil, sun, burning down on me maliciously. so, this weather-overcast some days, even raining!, and a couple days of sun, then back to cloudy. i LOVE it.

my folks are coming for a surprise visit this week-YEAH. my kids dont know-so dont tell. they are in Brigham City, UT, (whereever that is!) for a pastor's retreat-they're vineyard pastors-and will come down here for a couple of days. speaking of them-they are doing an awesome job with "church"...facilitating a community of believers (and some unbelievers) and really loving people. i hold their efforts in my heart as a hope of what we may someday be involved in doing...and as an antidote towards what sort of churchy/religion thing ive seen here (and im not talking about the LDS church, btw).

i SO dont think Jesus had our western churches in mind when he died on the cross for us, do you? my favorite verse in the bible is Galatians 5:1..."Christ set us free for FREEDOM'S SAKE-dont let yourselves be bound by the yoke of slavery again". YES!!! exactly. my other favorite section of the new testament is the story of jesus at the well with the samaritan woman. it's SO cool-i love how he is constantly breaking the social norms...YEH JESUS!!! my main goal in life is to be like him...

well, my kids are doing a chicken mummy tommorrow. im not really looking forward to it, but a friend of ours is doing it with her kids, so i thought i'd participate. ew...my kids are loving the thought, though i dont think it'll be as gross as they're hoping! ah well. the friend we're doing this with lives part time in San Diego, and i must say im extremely jealous about it! im just not stoked about saint george. waaaa...sorry for all the whining.

i'd also like to say that my 10yo dd is a GENIUS. bragging? yes-but...it's true. she DOES have a "mind like a steel trap". im proud. and im glad she's not in public school dealing with crap. i realized she doesnt love Little House on the Prairie like my dh and i did as kids cuz her life is SO DANG GOOD!!! laura's life seems not as good. my life and my dh's life was so not good (generally), that LHONP was like nirvana! 2 parents who consistently LOVED their kids and listened to them and did stuff with them?!? what-impossible. ok, our moms did love us-but...well...it was tough, to sum it up. oops-more waaa? nah-just realism.

anyways-i babble on! ive already written 4 pages in my journal-isnt that enough?!?!

Bloggers, forgive me, it's been one month since my last blog (almost)...

enough with the funny business-the really cool thing is...i've got my website back up!!! YEAH!!! it is...

www.summerjbarry.com

...and has a lot of my coolest paintings! just a little ad here, so...hope y'all dont mind!

on another note-homeschooling is going well! my dd daughter is getting better and better at reading every day...the funniest thing she's read? She was supposed to read "They also got a locker full of silver coins." but she read "They also got a locker full of...shit." needless to say, i BUSTED up laughing-in fact, im laughing as i type this!!! SOOOOO funny to me. what a bargain for those pirates! LOL a whole locker full. so, she got all offended, poor girl, and ran off crying-bad mommy. it was just too funny....i apologized and explained what sh-- was and why i thought it was funny. she was still not amused. ah well...the twisted mind of an adult, what can i say?

so...im still going through a lot of emotional turmoil. wondering when/if the wringer will end. i read a great quote by someone in TAW...

"In a dark time, the eye begins to see."---Roethke

so true, im finding.

and i found another COOL site for women... http://another.girlatplay.com it's cool-women living their creative dreams, which i what im hoping to do! scary, really, esp. with all the NO NO NO, YOU CANT DO IT crap ive got going on in my mind, but...i WILL press on! so there.

well, that's all. shalom